This is a chemical burn. It will hurt more than you ever been burned and you will have a scar. Stay with the pain. Don’t shove to center. Look at your hand. The first soap was made by the ashes of heroes, like the first monkey shot into space. Without pain, without sacrifice, we would have nothin’. This is your pain. This is your burning hand. It’s right here. Don’t deal with it the way those dead people do! Come on! What you’re feeling is premature enlightenment. This is the greatest moment of your life, man, and you’re off somewhere missing it. Our fathers were models for god. If our fathers bailed, what does that tell you about god? listen to me. You have to consider the possibility that god does not like you. He never wanted you. In all probability, he hates you. This is not the worst thing that can happen. We don’t need Him. Fuck damnation Fuck redemption. We’re gods unwanted children? So be it!! Listen!! You can run water over your hand and make it worse or you can use vinegar to neutralize the burn. First you have to give up. First you have to know, not fear, know that someday you’re gonna die. It’s only after we’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything. Congratulations, you’re one step closer to hitting bottom.